Goodbye September...hello October!

Hello October.

I can't believe my due date month is already past and now I am finally not pregnant (I thought this day would never come) and I have a beautiful baby boy! Cash is almost 3 weeks old and I am a mom, those are two things I don't think I will ever get over. 

I will forever hold September close to my heart. September was perhaps the sweetest and hardest month of my entire life. I have never been more exhausted, overwhelmed, happy, emotional, excited, scared, and worried more than I was last month. 

The day we brought Cash home I was so doubtful in my capability of being a good mother and being able to take care of our sweet baby. I was so overwhelmed and tired from the restless nights in the hospital. Every time Cash cried, I wanted to cry. But with every little look and every smile or grin that Cash gives me is my reassurance that he loves me and I am doing a good job. There is no better feeling than being needed and wanted so much by someone. It has all been worth it. I am so happy and proud to be his mama. He brings so much joy and happiness into our home. Now that he is here I can't imagine life without him. Every time I see those chubby cheeks resting on his body, milk dripping from his perfect lips, his gummy smile, or curious eyes I am so grateful he is mine forever and that I get to see that face everyday! I hope he knows how loved he is! He is my favorite reason to lose sleep. Mama loves you to the moon and back Cash!

You, me, and baby

As Scott and I get closer and closer to due date I can't help but think of all the changes that will occur in our life. It has been just the two of us for so long that it is hard to imagine having a third person coming into our family. It's a little scary to think it's not going to be just him and me, but him, me, and baby as a family of three. I know that things will be totally different, but I also know that they will be way better! We will have a precious baby that is part of him and a part of me and I just can't wait for all the love we get to welcome into our home.
Now a little bragging:
Scott has been the best husband throughout my whole pregnancy, he has been so patient, supportive, sensitive, and understanding. He has calmed me through all of my crying episodes, irritability, nausea, and tiredness. He has filled in for me when I wasn't able to cook, clean, or do the dishes. He has made trips to the store for either my upset stomach or sudden cravings.
He has been my rock through these 9 months of pregnancy. I honestly don't know what I would have done without him.
He has taken part in my obsession with baby gear, registering at stores, and researching/reading all the ratings on different brands. He has listened to my constant talk about the nursery all summer. He has become an expert at putting together "baby stuff." He came with me to all my doctor appointments and was very comforting when it came to my worries. Whenever I get scared and nervous about this whole parenting thing I just remember I am in it with Scott, and we make a great team. 

There is nothing that has warmed my heart more than seeing Scott prepare to be a dad, kissing his son, reading him books, talking to him, singing him songs, and touching my belly to feel him kick. I can already see how much he loves him. I cannot wait for the moment I see Scott holding our baby boy.  I know he is going to be the best dad.

Dear husband

Dear husband,

Thank you for biting off the rotten part of the apple before giving it to me.

Thank you for playing me Bohnanza for the thousandth time because you know how much I love it.

Thank you for rubbing my stomach when I don't feel good.
Thank you for being the driver because I'm horrible with directions.

Thank you for talking to our baby every day.

Thank you for making a blue print of our apartment because you know how anxious I am to move in and decorate our home.

Thank you for letting me pick out the ice cream flavor at the store.

Thank you for going on walks with the baby and I.

Thank you for killing every spider I find.

Thank you for being willing to paint my toenails ever since my bump has gotten in the way.

Thank you for always waiting patiently for me to get ready.

Thank you for being money conscientious.

Thank you for popping my back every single day.

Thank you for playing with my hair cause you know how much I love it.

Thank you for being a hard worker and going to school for our family.

Thank you for being my best friend.

Thank you for encouraging me to start an Etsy shop and complimenting my work, always.

Thank you for always trusting my taste in decor.
Thank you for being the designated trash emptier.

Thank you for making me laugh daily.

Thank you for loving me unconditionally.

Thank you for making everything that is important to me important to you.

Thank you for always grilling my turkey burgers for me.

Thank you for folding the laundry.

Thank you for being aware of my feelings.

Thank you ahead of time for changing all of the dirty diapers ;).

Thank you for coming with me to all my doctor appointments.

Thank you for reading books to our baby.

Thank you for helping me with all my ongoing projects.

Thank you for being the best.

xoxo, your wife

You are the...

Being married for almost 5 months now I have seen all of Scott's quirky habits, learned all of his pet peeves, and smelled his "Morning breath" and I still fall for him more everyday. I'm so grateful that I married my best friend. We become more and more alike everyday. We finish each others sentences, we have the same humor, we have the same thoughts, we are the same amount of weird and crazy...the good kind, and unfortunately we are both pretty stubborn. We love fiercely like husband and wife, laugh like best friends, and quarrel like siblings. Even though sometimes I want to hit him with a pillow, I wouldn't trade him for the world. He makes me laugh like no one else, knows me better than anyone, loves me and all my flaws, knows how to make me smile when I am upset, cares for me as his #1, and treasures me like a queen. He challenges me to be the best I can be and makes me want to be a better person. He wants me to achieve my goals and succeed. He takes time to do things that I love to do and takes an interest in things that I am interested in. For all of this, I am so blessed. I'm so lucky I get to spend forever hand in hand with my best friend.